Early Morning Rant

Hello. I've been up since about 4 AM, and I've finally given in to the fact that I won't be going back to sleep, so I shall grace my... two readers with a post.

I'm so sick of people's feeling. Seriously, take a cue from me and be a freakin' robot 'cause you're killing me here. I am the queen of "help! my friend has feelings for me, what do I do?", and I know that people are starving, dying and living in dire conditions, but given the amount of times this has happened to me in the past, I will be a selfish, ungrateful baby and allow myself to say: fuck my life. I've lost yet another friend to his unnecessary and grossly misplaced feelings and it sucks, 'cause I miss him quite terribly. Oops, that was a feeling. *suppresses it* SEE? NOT THAT HARD, PEOPLE.

At 22 (wow, I'm 22. Yeah, it's recent), I finally got my first car. Apparently, I inadvertently guilted my dad into buying it, oops? But the result is favourable to me, so I shall bask in the lovely warmth of having a new car that is all MINE. Or is it? The family car conveniently decided to stop functioning two days after I got mine and I've had to share my baby with the driver for the past two days. The family car should be ready to pick up today, but I'm still a bit miffed over the whole thing. Mine. *grabs car*

The weather has been unforgivably dusty, I feel like some of it has taken root in my lungs and I'm perpetually breathing sand at this point. Silver lining? Classes have been cancelled for the day. *insert grin here* Negative side? I'm left alone with my thoughts all day and that's never a good thing. Oh well! Shan't even waste my energy on a sadface. *sneezes* Effing dust.

I can't stop listening to Drive By- Train. And a friend of mine teases me about it, 'cause his interpretation of it is that I'm just THAT excited about my car, and everything has to be driving-related. Yeah, no. It's cute! Makes me a bit dance-y though, which is fine.. except when people start looking. *insert cringe here* Anyway, yeah, that's my current guilty pleasure.

And that shall be all for now! I'm going back to watching friends in bed. Oh em gee, you guyth, It'th like totally eckthiting, rachel is toteth preggerth and joey ith in love with hurr. Don't ask, I can't explain why I did that either.

PAYCE. (that's peace, for the slow and dim-witted. why do I insult my readers? *sigh* apologies.)

-Lilo

Remember Me?

There's very little out there that makes me feel like sharing and there are a very few amount of people who are on the receiving end of it. Yet, here I am, over a year and a half later, itching to post this quote I came across, and I have no justification for this desire.

I've read a lot of quotes in my lifetime, I've felt like a few have captured my feelings at different periods I've gone through, but *spoiler alert: cliche imminent* I feel as if this one embodies... me. Just me. I can't explain it, I can't sugarcoat it to make myself sound like less of a douchebag, or put it into acceptable terms for everyone to understand. I just feel the raw emotion behind it so deeply and it consumes me.

"Can you understand? Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little? For all my despair, for all my ideals, for all that - I love life. But it is hard, and I have so much - so very much to learn."
- Sylvia Plath

I chuckled as I typed her name, I would feel a connection with a person who was widely regarded as unstable, to put it mildly. But fret not, kind stranger, I shan't be sticking my head into any ovens any time soon.

-Lilo.